It's all good

I wish I could say that things are going just the way i want them to.
No.
Instead, "life" takes it's own path and shows me what it wants me to see.
It's not all that bad actually.
Just a little..
Different from what I expected.
I ask myself when was the last time i was really happy
You know...
Truely happy.
I can tell you now.
31st december 2004
I was among friends.
There were new additions though. But all's good.
"life"..my life is changing slowly. I think I'm more focused now than I was before. I've given up a few dreams and picked up new ones on the way. New ones that have been long hiddened in my heart and i never thought i could have pursued them before. Now I want to. Now I'm ready to.
It's not going to be easy. I can't depend on my mother's bank account now. She won't let me. So for once, I have to do this on my own. And to tell you the truth...it's not that scary.
It's not that I've become fearless.
It's more like I've taken a step back to breathe.
That breath,
Makes up for all my past mistakes
Usher in the new year if you please,
cus I'm ready to see the end
:)